March 27, 2007

chewing the scenery

Tol Mahal tapi Haprak - LDP

Congestion. Compacted road.
Scorching hot still,
to the darker stage of twilight.

NOKIA walkman came in handy,
as radio was a dullard.
Sang like nobody's business.
Sang like nobody was watching.
Sang like I own the world.
Overacting. Excessively dramatic.
"Chewing the scenery"

The Chinese guy next door laughed out loud.
At me not with me.
In a good way that is.

Talked to self on the phone.
10 minutes of solo silence.

Took off both shoes.
Can't help admiring the view.
The sky was a nice hue of blue.

This is my enroute home.
This is my enroute.
This is my.
This is.
This.


Traffic jam sucks. Fuckedudadey.

March 23, 2007

apple

the side-effect of having a klutz for a girlfriend

"Your birthday is a chance to say,

I am so proud of who you are.

No matter what your age may be,

You are my treasured, tiny star.. !!"


HAPPY BIRTHDAY to THE APPLE OF MY EYES ;)

from the person who smudged the cake

March 21, 2007

forwarded email

Oh before I forgot, again.

I've been bothered for quite some time by this one forwarded email sent by someone I've known from primary school. The email listed the Malaysian cabinet ministers and their educational background and qualifications.
Eg : Dato' Samy vellu - tingkatan 6 skolah mana tah.
Pak Lah - pengajian Islam from this one Uni. (I've deleted the email, so no reference for now).
Then another list of the Singaporean cabinet ministers, impressive educational background of Cambridge, Imperial College, Harvard and what not.
Attached with were the insults on how stupid our cabinets are in comparison.

HELLO, do you know how hard it was back then to get into a University?
Do you know how harder it was to even attend an English school, the only platform for 'English' exposure that ensure you a place for a higher education abroad?!!
and do you know how much money it takes, with little awareness in our nenek moyang to even send their children to school in the first place?!
Don't you realised that a degree from UM worths much more back then than a Master nowadays?!

Maybe the Singaporeans have more-exposed parents that knew how important education is, that maybe they have the money to send their children to English school hence better chances to be accepted to Cambridge and the rest of those premier U's.

I'm not saying that eduction is not important, it is just not THE most important thing there is.
To lead you need wisdom, and heart, and vision.
Plus, how many qualified Malaysians out there dare to take the challenge in leading this country of ours?
How many young pros, highly educated people out there who dare to become a politician, make a different and help the people? (What? Khairy Jamaluddin? Oh puhleezzz).
Especially nowadays, what's with getting 19A's for SPM? Aren't 9-10A's are enough?
Do they really lead a stable life getting all the A's like that? Do they get a better job, a better life?

Maybe. Maybe not. There's something amiss despite those academics achievements.
Anybody who knows the answer and has a solution, silalah bertanding untuk jawatan Menteri Pendidikan.

yamakasi


It has always been like this. Whenever i have lotsa important things to do, I resorted in doing all the least important things.

Like, when finals are just around the cupboard, I end up buying new furniture, revamping my small-already-crowded little room.

When there's a big presentation the next day, I would be very tempted in cleaning up the bathroom or paint the kitchen or wash the cat. I mean, bathe, the cats.

Whenever I should be studying for the big test, it's always the right time to finish up the SANDMAN collection by Neil Gaiman, or just another revision on The Archies.


Why? Mengapakah begitu?

It's denial. I'm in denial, that I don't want to believe that i don't have the time to do all that stuff.

That all my free time should be focused in doing so many other things that I'm not keen in doing. It's the denial of not having the time. Konon konon ada masa banyak untuk dibazirkan.


Nevertheless, this scenario happens only when I have important things regarding my studies.

If let say, you want me to go on a trip to Amsterdam tomorrow, I wont have the time to do anything else today, other than stuff regarding the trip, like packing and repacking and erm, shopping?
If you want me to help organizing an event or join a race or handle a team building program, I won't be able to sleep the night before due to anticipation and definitely won't have the time to do the laundry or dishes.

Then again, eventually, I'll get the job done.
I would study for the exam (tapi kadang-kadang main tembak je).
I would do the assignments and prepare for the presentation.
and I still get to finish up another round of The Archies, again and again. And again.
I know a few people who like to put things off for later.
They'd only get the things done when there's nothing else to be done.
Like wearing the best perfume only for special events.
Like forgetting to say how much that person matters because you've just nailed this great new job.
Like forgetting to thank God for His blessings, and for just having another day to live.

No I'm not talking about procrastination, heck we all procrastinate at certain times if not all the time.
It's the taking-things-for-granted attitude. How normal it is to be ignorant.
How cool it is being.. cold..
You just have to do it. If you think too much, you won't have the time to do anything.
Before you knew it, you already reached the 87th birthday.
Oh have you heard about the guy who climbed Tower One of the PETRONAS Twin Tower, barehanded, yesterday?! Cool!I mean, yeah it is dangerous without the supporting harness and stuff.
Plus he was putting lotsa people's lives and jobs at stake (kalau jatuh mati pasti kerajaan Malaysia akan dipersalahkan. Oh I forgot to mention, he's an orang putih, if you haven't heard already) but hey, its one helluva interesting thing to do rite? and to watch.

He managed to climb to 61st floor before being dragged inside by some people, the firemen if I'm not mistaken. He reminds me of the Yamakasi(s). How cool is that?!!
Little Red Riding Hood : "What great arm muscles you have grandma"
Grandma aka Mr Wolf in disguise : "All the better to climb the Twin Towers "

Ok, I should get back to work.

March 19, 2007

malas seperti labu

night threader

You know a person is not that into you anymore when ;

1. He texted/messaged other girls stuff like " Hey, you looked nice in that white dress. Care to hang out?"
2. You were talking, he increased the TV volume, because he can't hear the TV over you.
3. You were watching your favorite TV show, he changed the channel and asked you to do something else (you would never do the same thing towards him, you'd rather asked nicely). When you complained, he throwed the remote control on the floor and went sulking (wtf?)
4. He didn't even asked for you to go see the doctor though you have been sick for more than 5 days.
5. He doesn't care that you already know how to swim or that you've just been promoted, like, whatever.
6. He looks down on your every needs, dreams, taste, preferences, and desires.
7. You are his favorite emotional punching bag. When he's angry with other people, it's you that gets it. When he had a bad day at work, you were the one he's angry with. Not in the sense of expressing and sharing his emotions with you, more like you being the outlet of his anger towards the world.
8. He doesn't talk nicely to you anymore. He treats others better than you.
9. He spends more hours on the phone, flirting with other girls, but only 10 minutes with you.

" Don't look for a partner with whom you have no
problem with, but one you are good at overcoming problems with.."
Then again, you can never be too careful nor careless when it comes to relationships.
If you have good feelings about it, proceed, rather than missed chances.
Just be sure to take great care of yourself, keep the relationship healthy, and never do things out of obligation, only if you really want to.
Kepada rakan genitkuh, selamat berjaya bersama si Daniel Wu, hehe.

On the other hand, I have this friend, I named her kelkatu.
Like a kelkatu, she loves being near the light source.
She can't seem to be able to get all the attention to herself, so she makes sure she's the next important thing after 'the light', by becoming 'the light's' best friend.
To her, the light is replaceable, a stepping stone, in a tapestry of her dream world.
More than often, 'the light' would be in delusion of having this great friend who cares, before she hops to another light, and another, and another, leaving 'the light' clueless, laden with wretchedness.
In general,
1)majority of people remember you by the mistakes you've done.
2)only the latest achievements/friends that really count. Past glories fade with time, old friends become less significant with the evolution of lifestyles.

My friends aren't like that, hence I am for a lifetime in debt.
Plus all the good people of the world like this guy who found my handphone and gave it to the lecturer.
Terima kasih.

I've been reading too much profound, stirring comic books lately (no zerr, it's not THE ARCHIES).
Plus my school books, which seemed rather dull in comparison.
Plus these three books ;
1. MALAYSIA and the club of DOOM : the collapse of the Islamic countries by Syed Akbar Ali
2. I am Muslim by Dina Zaman
3. Don't sweat the small stuff by Richard Carlson
Interesting writings, of mutual understanding of different lifestyles and beliefs.
Sape nak pinjam, selamat mencari di kutub khannahkuh(spelling?!!) yg serabut bak bulu-bulu rambutan kerinting.

This is one helluva lazy entry written by a much lazier lass who should know better than procrastinating on doing more important things like the research paper, and project, and the much needed sleep.
"Remember that EVERYTHING has God fingerprints on it.."
Ciao!