my constant

toman si atuk

spoiler : Dilot's getting engaged

my two weeks

For more than a week i had a taste of how it'd be like, of not having this one special "constant" with me, the "constant" that has always been a major part of my life for more than two years.

Truthfully i am enjoying the freedom but the void had made me realised how much i love & really care for the "constant". For the companionship. For time spent. For everything.

At first i thought it was because i'm just used of having the constant around.. that i dont really care..

But i was wrong.

I miss my "constant" terribly.

Happy engagement to SIBAN & DILOT!!!

The lecturer is forcing us to sit for the midterm paper this sunday. Examination, on a freaking SUNDAY.. it's inhuman!!!!

There goes my weekends. No paintball. No dates. No shopping. Fuckaduda-dey

Have a nice weekends people.

spotless

Spotless minds

Out of all the feelings humanity possesses, love is the greatest gift of all.

But still, more & more people are suffering from & because of it.
Is suffering is about love?!

Love & suffering.

How can such a wonderful thing as LOVE leads to something as ugly as SUFFERING!?!

Is it truly because nothing in life comes free, that there'd always be a price to pay, especially for something as precious as LOVE itself.. ?! That maybe if it IS free, it wont be that much appreciated and invaluable...?!!

Let's just face it and get it over with?! Beyond the horizon, true happiness awaits.
Have faith people..


"Love is heaven and hell. Together as one"

hesitancy

Cik kiah & Pari-pari

"Until there is commitment, there's always hesitancy".

It's true, we must commit, to get things done effectively, in getting the best end result.
Commit, by closing all back doors so that there'd be no chance to draw back.
But the reasons must be big enough for someone to commit, especially to something as serious as career, or relationship. The question is still, once the die has been cast, whether or not you should go all out, giving it your whole heart. Or rather let in a little bit of pessimism, incase of "emergency", preparing for the worst to come?

Many chose to stay careful and have plenty of back up plans, especially while treading along the fine line between logic and emotion. More often than not, when feelings get involved, things would get out of control. You cant control how you feel, you cant control what your brains are making u think of. Only your reactions and responses that are controllable.. That's why people are afraid, of those things that aren't controllable.

I know that in life there's no guarantee to a happy ending. But I have faith.
Play hard, work hard, love hard (of course with plenty of rests in between), putting passion in everything u do, living the life of no regrets; those are my mindset on how I should live my life.
Planning is essential to, as just guidelines, not to be followed blindly and rigidly.

And I said this to an 18-year-old lad, that the most important thing is to stay true to oneself. So that if the relationship doesn't work out as u had imagined it would, or the dream job is actually shitty as hell, u still have your values and self worth intact. You may be broken beyond repair but still have this positive outlook on life, having the ability to move, to dream, and still loving life and its wonderful elements.



I am still half burnt half tanned. How can u get an even tan without stripping all your clothes off?!! berbelang2 bak kuda belang Africa, sigh.