Somebody ive been searching for, all this while,
Somebody ive practically dreamt into life,
Somebody ive longed to grow old with.
Fate got twisted somehow along the way.
Things cant get more complicated than this.
Having found ur soulmate is one thing, to lead a happy life with him is another.
Maybe, juz maybe, we were not meant to be together after all.
Maybe, its juz too late.
Its a dead end.
& i'm too heartless & tired to start to talk about it.
Somehow. there are many who see n feel the presence of true n strong love,
but denial was alwiz king.
Perhaps its the truthfullness of it all that provokes them,
considering the pretention that surrounds our daily lives.
" It could well be that i'm goin mad; or, on the other hand, i'm simply confused and unhappy; or on the third hand, i know exactly what i want but cannot bring myself to do it because of all the pain it would cause, and the tension between those two states of being, makes me want to explode.."
But i know, things will come my way, eventually. & i'm happy, for now.
October 30, 2003
October 28, 2003
1st day of Ramadhan
Hello.
Ive been writing actively somewhere else before but it was like ages ago.
Too much free time porpelled me to do this all over again.
Its the 1st of Ramadhan & i'm throwing up all over the place, all nite long.
My tummys hurting like nobodys business.
I can even clearly imagine it bursting outwutever it is inside, anytime sooner.
Gratefully, it was not appendic. Juz another one of those food poisoning cases.
& i thanked my bro for that, for kindly taking me to the hospital at 2am in the morning.
Forgive me for freaking out, juz that a good fren of mine had an operation on appendic only quite recently.
A very, very good fren of mine.
The symptoms were there, intriguing me to think of the worse that couldve happened.
Or maybe, its juz an excuse projected by my body(or mind), of not wanting to puasa, hmm..
Then again, i managed to hold till berbuka.
I'm telling u now, it'll take more than a mere stomach ache, or head ache here n there, or even high fever,
to hinder me from puase.
I'm tough, hell yeah i'm good.
Ha ha.
Ive been writing actively somewhere else before but it was like ages ago.
Too much free time porpelled me to do this all over again.
Its the 1st of Ramadhan & i'm throwing up all over the place, all nite long.
My tummys hurting like nobodys business.
I can even clearly imagine it bursting outwutever it is inside, anytime sooner.
Gratefully, it was not appendic. Juz another one of those food poisoning cases.
& i thanked my bro for that, for kindly taking me to the hospital at 2am in the morning.
Forgive me for freaking out, juz that a good fren of mine had an operation on appendic only quite recently.
A very, very good fren of mine.
The symptoms were there, intriguing me to think of the worse that couldve happened.
Or maybe, its juz an excuse projected by my body(or mind), of not wanting to puasa, hmm..
Then again, i managed to hold till berbuka.
I'm telling u now, it'll take more than a mere stomach ache, or head ache here n there, or even high fever,
to hinder me from puase.
I'm tough, hell yeah i'm good.
Ha ha.
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