February 24, 2006

returning from a hiatus

hello.
2 years of silence. (of the lamb)
ive gone missing, ha!
so nway, again, too much free time...
and this time, i decided to go public (macamla ade org nak baca pun)

2 years are lotsa things.
friendships & relationships hiccups.
family 'long khong' moments.
studies apetah lagi. kemalasan tahap dewa 19
travel-wise, ive been to sydney for two consecutive years
bangkok too, for the 1st time.
skipped my final exam. got my exam schedules mixed up
(
bukan sehari dua, silap seminggu, ok?!)
participated in 2 axn challenges.
got sued rm80,000 by a motorist though it was not entirely my fault.

the weather is still hot.

i'm turning 23. but i dont feel much different. or should i?
there's been adjustments, yes. but still, rooms for improvements.

i've discovered that i can sweet talk my way out, if i want to.
i've learned to open up more to my loved ones, not to let things got bottled up inside.
i learned that i can be anything or anyone that i want to, if i want it bad enough.

and yet, i found myself dealing with more or less the same issues over and over again
which at times, can be solved at a blink of an eye.
but most of the times, i end up with heartaches.
adakah aku tidak serik?
i look at it as a part of the process of growing up. chill la machaa..

i am self proclaiming myself as emotionally semi-retarded.
at times, my emotion seems to have major control over my total action and reaction.
i cried at almost every movie but too pround to admit so.
i'm also easily touched, easily bored, easily amused by moments, people, life and culture.

and i'm annoyed with myself for being too analytical, even at this very moment.

this's one heck of a useless entry.
ko sure ko nak bace ke toman?

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