August 02, 2006

hesitancy

Cik kiah & Pari-pari


"Until there is commitment, there's always hesitancy".

It's true, we must commit, to get things done effectively, in getting the best end result.
Commit, by closing all back doors so that there'd be no chance to draw back.
But the reasons must be big enough for someone to commit, especially to something as serious as career, or relationship. The question is still, once the die has been cast, whether or not you should go all out, giving it your whole heart. Or rather let in a little bit of pessimism, incase of "emergency", preparing for the worst to come?

Many chose to stay careful and have plenty of back up plans, especially while treading along the fine line between logic and emotion. More often than not, when feelings get involved, things would get out of control. You cant control how you feel, you cant control what your brains are making u think of. Only your reactions and responses that are controllable.. That's why people are afraid, of those things that aren't controllable.

I know that in life there's no guarantee to a happy ending. But I have faith.
Play hard, work hard, love hard (of course with plenty of rests in between), putting passion in everything u do, living the life of no regrets; those are my mindset on how I should live my life.
Planning is essential to, as just guidelines, not to be followed blindly and rigidly.

And I said this to an 18-year-old lad, that the most important thing is to stay true to oneself. So that if the relationship doesn't work out as u had imagined it would, or the dream job is actually shitty as hell, u still have your values and self worth intact. You may be broken beyond repair but still have this positive outlook on life, having the ability to move, to dream, and still loving life and its wonderful elements.



I am still half burnt half tanned. How can u get an even tan without stripping all your clothes off?!! berbelang2 bak kuda belang Africa, sigh.


1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Oh my lesbo Princess, aku full burnt full tanned mcm satu watak sesame street atau Queen of Uganda bak kate Cik Kiah.
Jom mkn di tepi P*nt** yg lain pulak Mabul? Bali? ngahaha..