broken

I'm loving my weekends.
My weekends have been spent wisely, with those I cherished.
Unlike my weekdays, nothing but boring stuff, shoving me into mind blowing restlessness, ending up sleeping my brains off from dawn to dusk until the break of dawn again.
Have you cried out of boredom? That's how bored I was.

I love spending time with my old friends, and my, how they have evolved.
Sometimes its downright frustrating, sometimes I can't help but smiling.
It is sad seeing those I considered 'beautiful', got broken along the process.
Got broken in certain aspects of life, not necessarily as a whole.

Like this friend of mine, with her chiseled feature and alluring nature, one would've thought she'd turn out to be a one of those pretty lasses with looks to die for.
She gained weight, end up with not-so-healthy complexion, not caring about how she looks.
Still pretty but she could have been prettier.

Another friend, beautiful mind, have always been level-headed, one of the best students in school; dropped out of college.

One friend, multi talented, a genius by all means, got her heart broken, leaving her forever stuck in that state of being left upon, those endless "why"s, changing her permanently from the fruitful person she was once, into this very sad person she is now.

Sayang sekali.

I have my share of cracks too. Seeing them made me thought of how I got broken myself...

Then again, who's complaining. They triumph in the fields or paths they've chosen.
Broken beauty is blessed with great career and a great guy in tow.
So does broken mind and broken spirit, they have influence, careers and even money not many people have.

It's true that beauty is to be preserved. Nevertheless, ugly to you may appear beautiful to others.
So what, you got broken, you screwed up, what's next? What about the rest of your life?

They, we, got broken from not focusing. We got distracted.
It's never to late to repair, or start over, start anew. Focus, get things done, stop throwing ourselves to sadness, or laziness, or restlessness.

So I started the week with some endorphin releasing, and it felt good!!
Tetapi saya sudah kebusanan kembali. Help.

"Welcome to wherever you are
This is your life,
you've made it this far.
Welcome, you gotta believe,
That right here right now,
you're exactly where you're supposed to be

When it seems you're lost, alone and feeling down.
Remember, everybody's different
Just take a look around"


p/s : Get well soon cikikuhh!!