My Days of Gratitude: Day 5. Hello Handsome!

Spot the nose!

Dr. pointed out the nose, the mouth, the cheeks, the hands and others but all I see is..... (fill in the blank)

Never thought it'd be this nerve wrecking. A mixture of feelings all boiled up into one - nervousness, curiosity, anxiousness, blissfulness, Oh-no-will-I-ever-be-ready??!! It is a journey of no other, to be watching your body doing its own work, and accepting the fact that you are just a mere observer and there's nothing much you can do, really.. that all you got to do is wonder, put your full trust in God, sit back and enjoy the moment.

It's astonishing how much love we have for you even before we even met. It is funny how comforting you can be during my times of need; always assuring me that I am not alone from your soft kicking and turnings, or on some days, the somersaults.

Tentatively I'll be seeing you in less than 7 week's time.. ! You are my one tough cookie, I pray hard for smooth delivery, good health; physically, mentally, emotionally.. for all of us!

Can't wait to see you, Handsome!

My Days of Gratitude - Day 4. One year after

My Buddy dearest,

Thank you for the every day, 

That you make me feel like the Queen of the play.

May our fondness remain
As bright as the sun,
As full as the moon,
Until the end of our journey here on earth,
Holding each others hands in Heaven

InsyaAllah

XOX

Late Uncle

Suatu hari di hari raya..

"Ayah Nyah awak tu baik sangat, Mak Nyah rindu sangat dia, rasa macam semalam je, tapi dah tiga tahun dah..

 

Orang kampung selalu cakap, Ayah Nyah tu baik, sentiasa tolong azan kat masjid, tolong kalau ada kenduri, tak pernah berkira nak pinjamkan van ke amek pisang ke apa ke.. Insya Allah, Ayah Nyah bahagia di sana.. 

 

Bila Mak Nyah demam, sakit sikit, tak larat nak masak, Ayah Nyah masakkan siap hantar kat katil. Bila Mak Nyah penat, Ayah Nyah yang masakkan, dia faham, tak pernah paksa atau merungut..

 

Bila jalan-jalan dengan anak-anak, mana-mana, mesti belikan makanan “Haaa ni Mak korang suka makan”

 

Bila tak kerja, lepas hantar anak-anak pergi sekolah, kadang-kadang “Pah, jom pergi keluar makan”, terus pergi dating berdua pergi makan, jalan-jalan dekat-dekat ke jauh-jauh sikit ke..

 

Nak tinggi suara, memang tak pernah. Dia tau Mak Nyah macam mana, tak penah marah Mak Nyah depan orang, tak pernah tegur kasar-kasar, sentiasa backing Mak Nyah depan orang lain.. Berlembut sangat dengan Mak Nyah, dengan anak-anak.

 

Anak-anak semua sayang sangat kat dia, dalam seminggu tu at least sekali la, mesti sebut Abah diorg. Rindu sangat-sangat..

 

Dah pernah dapat suami yang baik camtu, macam mana la nak terbukak hati lagi nak terima orang lain yang mengorat2 ni..

 

Mak Nyah redha, tapi memang sampai sekarang rindu lagi, tak terbukak pintu hati lagi... "

*kesat air mata

 

Al Fatihah Ayah Nyah. Semoga kita semua mendapat jodoh yang baik seperti beliau insya Allah 

On your side

Going to work this morning, I found myself sighing at this T-junction as traffic was stalled - I wasn't expecting that as it was still way to early for going-to-work traffic jam. As I drove onwards, I saw a lady sprawling by the road side. Apparently there was an accident, to my relief she looked pretty much alive. From the look of it, I reckoned that she fell of this motorcycle she was riding to work with her husband. That was when I suddenly realised why people would want to get a life partner or get married.
 
How did it come to that? As I sat there in my car watching the patrol officer clearing up the area, the (assumed) husband, bleeding profusely from the mouth, kept attending to his (assumed) wife, consoling her, cleaning up here face with a piece of cloth, hugging and covering her from the commotion building up around them. She was clearly upset and in pain, and just having someone by her side in that time of need, was already something I would've greatly appreciate myself.

<3

In a perfect world, marriage is having the assurance that someone will always be there for you. Even for instance if that lady was not with her husband during that accident, the husband would be the first one being notified, the first person who'd rushed to the hospital to see her and stay with her 'till she gets better.
I didn't get that before. I don't really know how that scenario led me to that understanding but yes it made me understand on one of the many reasons of why people would want to have a life partner.

We have parents, bestfriends, good friends, good samaritans and all the good people in the world that would lend a hand but would they really be there in your time of need? Maybe, but would they always be on your side? Only when it's convenient to them.

Having a life partner is sort of having all that, someone that is yours truly, that would ALWAYS be on your side. He would make time for you, would commit, would get angry and be mad at you for doing stupid things but would would never leave you or give up on you (unless you've crossed the line of course)

A bit too far fetched? Maybe.

I just hope that lady is OK. Stay safe on the road everyone!

When

"When your girl wants to get married and you don't, my advice is to break it off.."

"I don't think there is anything wrong with someone wanting to get married. I really don't. But I also see nothing's wrong with not wanting to get married. What I see as wrong, is not respecting your needs as well as respecting the needs of your partner. It's wrong when two people can't accept that they each want different things in life. She really can't expect to be able to pressure you into taking a huge life altering step that you don't want to take. But guess what, Skippy. It works both ways. The same goes for you. You can't expect her to give up on a huge life changing step that she wants to take.."

Small things



"You sit"

"In the end, it's the small things that matter. The first cup of coffee every morning, the kind, random deeds, and eventually giving up the remote control.. It does not always have to be hard work"

Us Against The World

"Like a river to a raindrop, I lost a friend

My drunken as a Daniel in a lion's den

And tonight I know it all has to begin again

So whatever you do, don't let go"

BFF

from LoveQuotes

My Days of Gratitude - Day 3

to get to hold hands

"You made me laugh, wiped my tears, hugged me tight, saved my life, watched me succeed, seen me failed, cheered me on, kept me going, put up with my mood swings, has said that everything will be alright when things get tough, kept me sane"

I am lucky, to be given the chance once again to love and be loved without intention, to care and be taken care off without expectation; I take you as the promise from God that I will always have a best friend, forever.

To Love

from appleinmyheart

I Love My

Photo credit: Mike Joos Art

Better With You

You Know

monkey business

Aboo by SheezyArt

Aboo is my favorite monkey. Aboo makes me smile when all else failed. Aboo is cute but handsome at the same time. Me loves Aboo, not Aladdin.

Dinner with friends from yesteryears last night, I pondered once again on how time flies, how most people changed, for the better. And how little I changed, for better or worse. Mid life crisis should be over by the age of 26, no? Mine is prolonged, to the point of being annoying. Void filled but not without the ugly aftermath, the one I failed to clean up for and let others do it for me. I'm a disappointment to many, to myself I can't forgive. For that, I am sorry.

Am financially, physically, emotionally and mentally broke. Will look for Brains I misplaced soon, will stop listening to Heart for a short while. Embracing my fate. So what's next?

Wishing for enough happiness to keep everyone happy, everyday. You deserve to be happy. You deserve better.

Random: I have this thing for crow's feet on guys, I find them charming and nice to look at, no?

LANDSLIDE - Dixie Chicks

I took my love and I took it down
Climbed a mountain then I turned around
And I saw my reflection in the snow covered hills
Well the landslide brought me down

Oh, mirror in the sky
What is love?
Can the child within my heart rise above
Can I sail through the changing ocean tides
Can I handle the seasons of my life

Well, I've been afraid of changin'
'Cause I've built my life around you
But time makes you bolder
Children get older
And I'm getting older too

Well ...



this song brought me more tears than everything else ever did