Captain Kirk

Dear Boss,

Just thought of sharing, what we can all learn from watching Captain James T. Kirk running the Starship Enterprise in Star Trek

"If you've seen the TV show, you know that Kirk was not the smartest guy on the ship. Mr. Spock, his first officer, was the always-logical intellect on board. Dr. McCoy had all the medical knowledge available to mankind in the 2260s. Scotty was the chief engineer, who had the technical know-how to keep the ship running, even when it was under attack by aliens.

I learned so much from watching this guy in action. He was the distilled essence of the dynamic manager, a guy who knew how to delegate, had the passion to inspire, and looked good in what he wore to work. He never professed to have skills greater than his subordinates. He acknowledged that they knew what they were doing in their domains. But he established the vision, the tone. He was in charge of morale"

"I don't believe in the no-win situation" - Captain Kirk in The Wrath of Khan

inept

Quite a number of those dear to me are having emotional turmoil of late that it kind of brushed on me a little bit. I was mellowed to the point of I cringed whenever I feel happy. Change of hormone, quarter life syndrome, insecurity. Inadequacy.

We need to be reminded on how great life is indeed, that there are more to life that everything we are facing now, are just a small fraction of it. That those too, shall pass. Then again, to translate that into practice, even to a crusader of happiness, is easier said than done.

Superior kept telling how bad your are at work without even once praises you when you performed.

Parents kept comparing you to their friends' kids, how smart, and nice, and polite etc they are compared to you.

Your boyfriend kept looking at other girls and saying how he would definitely fall hard should certain girls were to hit on him

Your friend complaining on the lousy dinner you've worked so hard in throwing for her birthday.

I won't deny you should any of the above makes your feel inadequate.

It may come from low self esteem kicking in at all the wrong places.

Or in cases where you can't do anything about it, in areas where you can't improve, you are just not loved / appreciated / valued enough.

No matter how much you do, to parents, husband, friends, superiors; you would never be good / pretty / loyal / excellent / great enough.

Helped. Thank you

Then you learned to let go. 

Someone else would be good enough for them.

Someone else would find you good enough.

Then again, calm down, and think hard, whether all these are just in your head. And whether it's you, you are the one who's making your loved ones feel inadequate as no matter how much they love you, you would always feel unloved..

In this unnecessary craziness mostly tricks played on you by your brains, it's great to have someone holding your hand, calming you down, telling you not to worry and that everything would be fine.

With that, I thank you. And hope that I would never make you feel inadequate, I am just a sad kid sometimes, the happiest most of the times. Should you think I am inadequate, tell me, I can help you find someone better.

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure"

technology

How our life is being taken over by technology

Kota Kinabalu Post It

Excerpts from my note pad, from my numerous business trips to Kota Kinabalu

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As we sat there behind the looking glass, we watched the unfolding of human drama - One big guy was trying to get lucky with one hot lady. The shortest guy in the room dancing his head off, totally wasted at the mercy of his gf's small frame. The band was playing Lady Gaga's song and everyone seemed to be having a good time.

We just sat there and drank. I lost at pool. The rest talked, and drank more. We felt old but it was a good feeling. In few hours we were already longing for bed but the night had just begun

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"Assalamualaikum"
"Waalaukumussalam"
"Oh saya bukan Islam sebenarnya *grinning. Tapi adik saya Kristian masuk Islam"
"Jadi kau agama apa?"
"Saya dulu tiada agama, sekarang saya Kristian"

Cab rides have always been interesting whenever I'm on a business trip on my own but this one in particular was definitely top on the list. The driver was a 50-year-old ex junkie who stopped cold turkey after founding religion. He kept saying that without Jesus, he won't be able to quit and forever he is in debt of Jesus. Then the discussion on religions came out. We talked on no matter how different we are in many ways, we can all be traced back to Adam & Eve. "Kan bagus kalau ada satu agama saja, tak payah gaduh-gaduh". And then he started complaining about his wife.

15 minutes to destination and he started singing. The song was about global peace and love, and Jesus, and was alright, but the bad breath was a turn off.

"Semoga Tuhan Jesus merahmati perjalanan pulang kamu". Thank you Uncle *smilling while getting off

How To Be Alone

Beauty In The World

Beautiful, beautiful song

"I know you’re fed up

Like a lead up for us

All they talk about is

What is going down?

What’s been messed up for us?

When I look around I see blue skies

I see butterflies for us

Stop and smell the flowers

And lose it the sweet music and dance with me

There is beauty in the world

So much beauty in the world

Always beauty in the world

Shake your booty boys and girls for the beauty in the world

Pick your diamond pick your pearl there is beauty in the world

All together now

Heya throw your hands up and holla

Throw your hands up and holla

When you don’t know what to do

Don’t know if you’ll make it through

Remember god is giving you beauty in the world

So love (Beauty in the world)

Yeah love (Beauty in the world)"

Mak

May 22.
Happy Birthday Mak!!!!
I love you!!!!!!!

Questioning

sinking sand

" I mean, kalau aku, kalau hati aku kata Yes, aku yakin je. Stress sume tolak tepi. Menda2 camni, melibatkan hati dan perasaan.. kau ikut instinct kau je"

" Heh. Ikut hati mati. Zaman dulu maybe boleh pakai. Zaman sekarang semua orang dah pandai. Gaduh sikit, cabut. Bukannya kau depend on dia and dia depend dengan kau, masing-masing boleh hidup sendiri apa sebenarnya"

"Cabut tu patutnya last resort kan?"

"Last resort? Hehe. Takyahla elaborate lebih. Sebab takde rasa dependent, itu akan jadi first choice"

Its normal to have cold feet prior to your own wedding
Its normal to almost give up on the massive preparation required for your very own wedding
Its normal to doubt your decision, the choices you made, just days before your own wedding.

Or so people say.

Everyone should ask themselves before jumping into the bandwagon - do they really want to spend and share the rest of their lives with the one they are marrying, or do they just want a husband to take care of them, or a wife to clean up, cook and do everything for them?

Are you in love with the person, or in love with love and the idea of being in a relationship, and being married?

Marriage is like making love, some perceive it as just an outlet that can be done with anyone or anything for that matter. I believe in doing it with that special someone, with love being the main essence of the unification, not for any other reason - sebab nak tolong, sebab kesian, sebab takde no other choice, sebab semua org kene kahwin.

I'm not a cynic. I am just a firm believer of love. Why do you love that person in the first place, why your heart chose to love that person instead of others?

Entahlah

Cuti Sakit

Gambar Lama - Bermain Ice Cream Soda di Hari Raya

Hai. Saya adalah penghidap tonsillitis.

Tonsilitis merupakan tanda awal bahawa saya akan deman pada jam atau hari berikutnya.

Berdasarkan pemahaman cetek saya dalam sistem imunisasi tubuh manusia dan hanya boleh diaplikasikan kepada sistem tubuh badan saya, tonsil saya merupakan mekanisma pertahanan (defense machanism) pertama badan saya dalam mengatasi serangan kuman dan virus penyakit senatero.

Setiap kali berada dalam persekitaran kurang sihat - dalam konteks ini, acapkali, tonsil saya bertindak sebagai barisan paling hadapan menghadapi serangan pertama dan mula membesar bagai johan; perasaannya umpama mengulum sebutir dua bola ping pong di dalam kerongkong. Kemudian bermulalah episod demam singkat tatkala badan melancarkan serangan balas terhadap jagoan jagoan kuman penyakit tersebut.

Kebanyakan orang, sepertimana appendiks, jalan mudah untuk tidak kerap demam adalah dengan terus membuang appediks dan tonsil melalui pembedahan. Saya pula percaya bahawa dengan ketiadaan tonsil, serangan kuman dan virus penyakit akan terus sampai ke organ organ dalaman yang lebih penting kerana tiada lagi mekanisma pertahanan pertama itu tadi. Impaknya, saya kekal kerap demam yang singkat (?!) dengan keyakinan bahawa organ organ dalaman saya mendapat perlindungan sewajarnya daripada bahana kuman penyakit.

Oleh itu Boss, saya mungkin mc lagi bulan hadapan. Maafkan saya.

500 Maut - Nigeria

"Akhbar-akhbar melaporkan, penduduk Islam di kampung-kampung tersebut telah diberi amaran menerusi pesanan ringkas telefon dua hari sebelum serangan agar mereka boleh melarikan diri.

Saksi kejadian pula berkata, mangsa yang kebanyakannya wanita dan kanak-kanak dalam serangan ganas sistematik selama tiga jam semalam itu ditangkap menggunakan perangkap haiwan dan pukat nelayan ketika mereka cuba melarikan diri daripada para penyerang yang kemudiannya menetak mereka hingga mati."

WTF. Selamba bunuh orang

Miss Me Not

Yesterday's. Compiled.


What or who do you miss most today?

"Today? Shazu. Sbb die slalu send wekap sms hehe." - Pelakon Kanak-Kanak Hindustan.

"Aaaa apanamaaaaaaaaa. I just wanna go back home n watch smalam punye idol. So I miss american idol la kirenye ye dak.. ?" - Atuk.

"My sleep.. hahaha." - Beloved Jukebox.

"Shiro." Shiro who? "LOL perlu jawab jugak ke?" Sape shirooooooooo?!! "Someone dear to me...kahkahkah!!" - Peminat Drama Korea.

"Miss the most? My parents, sebab diorang nak gi Dhaka. I will be going home to an empty house." - Tyra Celup.

"Kau?" Jawab la dulu. "Nanayau. kekekeke. I miss the train. Aku rindu puncak Yong Belar sebenarnya" - Presiden All Blacks.

"UNITEN! hahaha. Out of the blue. Kenapa? Apa jawapan org2 lain? OK btw I do not miss UNITEN. I miss being in UNITEN with friends hahaha. Acceptable x?" - Somebody's Cute Wife

"Ali." - WTH

"I miss the moment atas punck gunung." - Pengakap diRaja

"Aisha Humaira." - Dilot

"Sleep." - Monyet Kesayangan

"I miss laksa sarawak."

"My husband." - Ushina

"Shazu!" - Si Peguam

"My cats." - Veterinerer

"Watching some sxy gals on the pc??" - Bawang

"U LA OF COURSE!" - Hazelnut

"Spinning at club." - Kapten Hoki

"Kawan aku la!! Datin." - Akak Opis

"My hubby ler.." - kawan Ricet

"Mestila my babycat merangkap ahmad dhani :)." - our very own Celine Dion

"Err hv to be politically correct ke? If yes kena la jawab _____ (gf's name). But if not, I am missing my bed, hehe. Ngantuk gile today" - Pegawai Bank

"TKC frens." - Kapten Rumah Hijau

"Fairil..." Fairil who?! "Anak buah aku." - Bubble Laundry

"My bedroom.. Nape?" - Naib Kapten Futsal

"Huh? Movies, n lepak2. Y? Nak ajak ke?" - Sloppy Terd

"_____________ (bf's fullname)! Asal tanye camtu?"- Lady Engineer

"Wey, ape hal ni?" Saje random. "Ler, igtkan salah antar. I miss shopping" - Lady Doctor

"My beloved Ken!" - Cik Kiah

"My ayah angkat n sm1... jeng jeng jeng!! U?" - Budak Band

"My beloved daughter le.. hehe n diary EPE." -Manager, TNB

"I miss my .... hehe." - KLIA Staff

"My dad." - Kak Jan Tepeng

"U! Hehe." - Crowded Face

"Hurm. Tough question. I kinda miss a routine office job for some weird reason." - Kosmik Abiss

"??." Jawapan anda? "My fiance." - One of the Triplet

More friends missed their sleep than loved ones :p.

miss them

Adik dan Traffic Jam

* Two early-twenties stuck in traffic around 4.00pm, car not moving, AT ALL. Passing by Istana Negara..

"Kau pernah amek gambar dgn guard Istana Negara?"

"Tak penah. Dgn Buckingham Palace punye guard penah la."

"Aku pun tak pernah.."

* Parked the car 5 mins later and took the picture, back in car, stuck in stalled traffic still. Passing through Muzium Negara at 5km/hr, sigh.

"Aku tak pernah pegi Muzium Negara rupa-rupanya.."

"BIAR BETUL?!! Aku dah lama tak pegi, time kecik2 je"

" ..."

* Took the left turn to enter Muzium Negara. Went for a good tour around the museum before back in car again

"Traffic jam masih.."

"Bosan"

"Eh Tugu Negara lah.."

* Detoured. Santai di Tugu Negara dan Tasik Perdana. Banyak monyet.

One of the many days of my brother's life. How many of us have visited the National Museum these past 5 years? Tugu Negara? Tidak ramai. Mari!

Unnecessary

Lady Spotlight in Pink

Every year I'd come out with sort of a to-to-list. I am proud to say that I managed to realized nearly 80% on my 2009's list including doing the bungee jump, getting the speed lite for FRANCO and conquering Mt. Kinabalu by year end, a'lillah. As for resolution, eating more veggies? No. Healthy lifestyle - swim & run every other day? No. Quran every day? No. To be continued this year. and the year after.

To convince the love of your life that she is indeed the love of your life, can be one helluva tiring process. Being in love is a good feeling but it comes with all those unnecessary blunders - oversensitivity, jealousy, clingy-ness, insecurity etc etc - to most people that is. Then again, those are just the bad crater of the true beautiful essence of being in love (Apa kau merepek ni?!", kata shazu penuh distracted :p). Apart from those bewilderment of unnecessary-ness, having to love and be loved is a great aching of the heart, where you got lost and never wanting to find yourself again, you know what I mean?

"What is love? You'll be glad to know,
Is the chance for two hearts,
To share and to grow.
Trust, compassion, and a listening ear,
Will dispel all your doubts, cast out all your fears.

What is love? It's simple you see,
It's essential as air,
For our souls to breathe.
It replenishes your faith, and self- esteem,
Allowing you to fulfill, all of your dreams.

When is it love? Your heart will know,
What you should do,
And where you should go.
It will guide your path, straight and true,
Be prepared for love, when it comes calling for you. "

Bah. I just want to say I LOVE YOU *smiling my heads off :). My Monkey, WTH, my Village People, fellow friends and family, thank you for making my life as colorful as it is, and here's to a lifetime of joy and laughter and everything great, herein and hereafter insya Allah. Cheers

On the other hand this, is VERY unnecessary *shaking while covering head in shame.